The Girl with the Curly Hair - Asperger's and Me

Unfortunately though, what happens is that I get upset too. I can then quickly switch from trying to help them to ignoring them, because I am overwhelmed.

And annoyingly for NTs, I am very sensitive to others making any form of comment about my apparent disinterest or thoughtlessness.

The AS typically desires solidity, stability and reliability and this type of relationship will take time to build and progress.

I wonder whether having such intense special interests has any relationship to being depressed? When I’m unable to pursue my interests, it feels as though my world has been destroyed. I am reliant on these things to get me through each day.

In the end, I want to be able to love someone who meets my criteria. I would then be able to give up some of my independence and enjoy a happy relationship.

The Complete Guide to Asperger’s Syndrome by Tony Attwood

I let people down too, but I think that I feel much more hurt than they do. I can shut down easily which may lead to depression.

have decided that, to obtain security and harmony (my life goals), it is best to try and only depend on myself.

I want to be reliant upon myself and not someone else.