08/02/24 memory came up that when i was some age between 8(?)and 10/11(?)i was obsessed with the idea of becoming a porn star and watched hardcore porn regularly

Over the decades your roles reversed and reversed again. You were the seeker; you were the sought. Eventually, in moments of deep stillness or unbearable anguish, lover and Beloved melded. Only Love remained. This state of suchness looked like emptiness but felt like plenitude. You came to understand that not only have you been connected to your Be
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To a drinker the sensation is real and pure and akin to something spiritual: you seek; in the bottle, you find.