My Sobriety Story With Kristen Blanton Crocker
I thought the self-loathing, anxious, ‘not enough’ aspects of my personality were integral to who I was. But they weren’t. Turning to alcohol to cope with that inner critic was a bad decision.
Your best days are ahead of you
I remember being vaguely aware that I drank differently from the way other people did. I can’t remember ever turning down a drink, not even once; it would have been like a puppy turning down a proffered treat. Why not? Sure, I’ll have another. Drinking is fun. It feels good.
Caroline Knapp • Drinking: A Love Story
What a relief it was, what release: the drink turned that weird bond of ours into something I could hold in my hand, like a treasure, instead of something that just glinted in the air between us; it allowed me to respond to my father in a new way, to align myself with him without fear, to seal our pact.