Miscarriage From the Father’s Perspective

Andy kept telling me that no one is ever ready to have a baby and that it will always feel terrifying. The more he said this, the more resentful I became. The risk felt so much higher for me and it wasn’t something he would ever truly acknowledge.

Childbirth and raising a child became not an experience but a threat that the slightest bad decision would negatively impact our child’s future.

His only thoughts about the future were how he was going to make it up to these children that they’d had to live among such grueling animosity and unhappiness, all the fighting they’d heard, the times he yelled at them when he was angry at her,