Sublime

He read Ask the Dust by John Fante—an L.A. novel he had never heard of—which his assistant got from the public library downtown—and finally found what he was looking for: “I just knew that was the way those kids talked to each other—the rhythms, cadences, racism.”

I carried the book a hundred yards into the desolation, toward the southeast. With all my might I threw it far out in the direction she had gone. Then I got into the car, started the engine, and drove back to Los Angeles.

Something was wrong with her and it was not alcohol and I wanted to find out what it was.

Parce que c’était clair : Arturo Bandini n’était pas de la pédale, il n’y avait rien qui clochait chez Arturo Bandini ; même qu’il avait assez de passion pour six, ce garçon, et cette passion il l’avait sentie monter à la surface : quel homme, tout de même, il se posait un peu là comme écrivain et comme amoureux – aussi à l’aise avec le monde qu’av

A library was a good place to be when you had nothing to drink or to eat, and the landlady was looking for you and for the back rent money. In the library at least you had the use of the toilet facilities.) I saw quite a number of other bums in there, most of them asleep on top of their books.

J’avais vingt ans à l’époque. Putain, je me disais, prends ton temps, Bandini. T’as dix ans pour l’écrire ton livre, alors du calme, faut s’aérer, faut sortir et se balader dans les rues et apprendre comment c’est la vie.

“I just got a letter from my agent,” I told her. “My agent in New York. He says I sold another one; he doesn’t say where, but he says he’s got one sold. So don’t worry Mrs. Hargraves, don’t you fret, I’ll have it in a day or so.” But she couldn’t believe a liar like me. It wasn’t really a lie; it was a wish, not a lie, and maybe it wasn’t even a wi

This was the life for a man, to wander and stop and then go on, ever following the white line along the rambling coast, a time to relax at the wheel, light another cigaret, and grope stupidly for the meanings in that perplexing desert sky.

I bought a car, a 1929 Ford. It had no top, but it sped like the wind, and with the coming of dry days I took long rides along the blue coastline, up to Ventura, up to Santa Barbara, down to San Clemente, down to San Diego, following the white line of the pavement, under the staring stars, my feet on the dashboard, my head full of plans for another