self renewal

For the entirety of my young and skittish life, I had fixated upon my fear as if it were the most interesting thing about me, when actually it was the most mundane. In fact, my fear was probably the only 100 percent mundane thing about me. I had creativity within me that was original; I had a personality within me that was original; I had dreams an

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‘I used to think freedom meant doing whatever you want. It is knowing who you are, what you are supposed to be doing on this earth and then simply doing it.’ ⁃ Natalie Goldberg, ‘Writing Down The Bones’

if you're trying to slay Moloch in any realm other than the territory of the human heart, you're gonna fail over, and over

you might fail in interesting and scintillating ways -- but you're gonna fail

"When you hit the wrong note, it's the next note that makes it good or bad."—Miles Davis

You don’t have community because you aren’t a good community member. You don’t host events, you don’t know how to cook, you don’t know how to dance, you don’t know how to sing, and you aren’t doing anything to learn. You can’t tell stories or jokes.

Somewhere along the way, you realize that no one will teach you how to live your own life — not your parents or your idols, not the philosophers or the poets, not your liberal arts education or your twelve-step program, not church or therapy or Tolstoy. No matter how valuable any of that guidance, how pertinent any of that wisdom, in the end you di... See more

I have a working theory that the anxiety I feel is actually a massive amount of positive energy. It just feels uncomfortable because I haven’t learned how to channel that much energy yet. When I’ve been able to let it flow freely, my whole body fills with bliss.