The Hilarious World of Depression

“which is that if I can do it, then it must be dumb. If I can do it, it’s not that hard. So everything I ever did that was like a big deal, I’d be like, oh well, I guess it’s not a big deal. I thought that would be a big deal, but it’s not because I could do it. So that means any idiot could do it, so on to the next thing that I think is hard. And

I didn’t know that depression isn’t a mood. It’s a set of conditions that cause a whole series of thoughts and behaviors to happen over a long period of time, often things that are wildly different from one another.

Boy, I spin thoughts around in my head a lot, don’t I? Like, a lot. That’s what depression does. The dance floor of your mind is never without a pounding beat, and usually the DJ is playing eight or nine songs at the same time.

Only by being useful or talented, and receiving external recognition, would I achieve personhood. I couldn’t imagine a world where I was a worthwhile person by dint of mere existence; I felt like I needed to earn it and prove it every day.

No one was telling me the cards sucked, which to a depressed person means that the cards do suck but everyone’s either too polite or angry to actually tell you that.

“Trauma that is not transformed is transmitted,”

How arrogant of me to think that they don’t know what they’re talking about?”

“Depression lies,” said Jenny Lawson on a season two episode. “Because every single time, it says, ‘You’ll never come out of this again. You are absolutely worthless, your family is better off without you.’ And then I remind myself depression lies. Those things are lies.”

You’re not “in a major depression” when your team loses the big game, you’re just sad and disappointed like a normal healthy human gets. One’s a mood, the other’s a mental illness. If you were really depressed, you’d feel the same thing if your team won or lost, or perhaps feel nothing at all regardless of a game’s outcome.