The Hilarious World of Depression

You’re not “in a major depression” when your team loses the big game, you’re just sad and disappointed like a normal healthy human gets. One’s a mood, the other’s a mental illness. If you were really depressed, you’d feel the same thing if your team won or lost, or perhaps feel nothing at all regardless of a game’s outcome.

Depression is an illness that happened to you. Maybe it was from the chemicals and inherited genetic traits that appeared in your brain before you were even born. Maybe it was from a trauma that occurred and then festered in your brain. Maybe there were people with power over you who behaved in a way that screwed you up. It wasn’t you. You didn’t c

Only by being useful or talented, and receiving external recognition, would I achieve personhood. I couldn’t imagine a world where I was a worthwhile person by dint of mere existence; I felt like I needed to earn it and prove it every day.

No matter what, I have all the mechanisms of society in my favor to back me up. Even if someone has a bias against me for being a person with depression, I have plenty of other widely held biases that work in my favor, like racism, sexism, ableism, and homophobia. I abhor all those things but there’s no question that, through no effort of my own, I

A depressed mind is pretty adept at buying into a distorted reality.

I’ve managed to stop getting worse. I want to be better.”

The saddies attach little or no sense of intrinsic value to their person, so accomplishment automatically feels fraudulent.

“which is that if I can do it, then it must be dumb. If I can do it, it’s not that hard. So everything I ever did that was like a big deal, I’d be like, oh well, I guess it’s not a big deal. I thought that would be a big deal, but it’s not because I could do it. So that means any idiot could do it, so on to the next thing that I think is hard. And

Boy, I spin thoughts around in my head a lot, don’t I? Like, a lot. That’s what depression does. The dance floor of your mind is never without a pounding beat, and usually the DJ is playing eight or nine songs at the same time.