Fandom as Methodology: On Fan-Nonfiction and Finding the Joy of Mutual Delusion

What drew me so desperately to Haraway at twenty, eager to find a way of being in the world that I could commit to, could follow towards something I wanted that I hadn’t yet (then, or maybe even now) learned to articulate, was her additive lens: her commitment to both/AND, to celebrating a purposeful, pleasurably rigorous way of being. Haraway drea... See more

If you write to please others, you are selling out. You are in the process of audience capture. This way of talking, which is how the fear in me talks, is common—as if writing for an audience and writing for yourself are at odds with each other. I really used to feel like that.

But I no longer think that it is quite right. The relationship between c... See more

The one practice I kept was writing. It made the cut because I can’t deny how many good things in my life have come as a result of my putting words out into the world. It also felt like a respite: one area where I wasn’t skeptical of my identity. I’m at my most courageous on the page because interrogating my feelings with words feels justified and

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